I feel resentful today. I am not who I wanted to be and thought I was going to be.  I guess I should just suck it up and accept this is who I am but it is hard.
  I always love to dream cause I never have to use a cane and can run, jump and do whatever...last night I had a cane in my dream.  I was back at Liberty running free but knew I should be using a cane and I would go looking for it.  It makes me so sad that my cane has made it into my dreams.  Before, even though it was just a dream, I felt normal and now with the appearance of the cane I feel as if my world is getting smaller.  My dream world was the last one I had that I was the old me and I can't describe how it feels to lose that.