Last time it snowed

                                 Neighborhood boys all at our house working on building an igloo

Making sugar cookies with Sam

 i can't get them all in order but here is Sam making sugar cookies. He cracked his own eggs and everything.  He was very proud of himself

Go Sam, Go Sam, It's your birthday, It's your birthday

First Snow of the Winter

 It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas! We had our first snow yesterday! I remember how excited I would get as a kid when they called for snow and I am not sure that has changed even now that I am older.  I love the quiet that comes with a blanket of snow. 

                                            Caleb all bundled and ready to go play

                                     Seeing Sam so excited was one of my favorite things

     Sam started the snowball fight and hung in there until his face was completely plastered

                                      Not a great picture but the stillest I could get Sam to stay


Daniel had a parade yesterday plus the football game so it was a cold 9 hours for him.  Luckily we lost the game so we are done for the year! While at the game Daniel decided to start a snowball fight in the stands.  Soon a lot of the band kids and some of their parents were joining in until an announcement came over the loud speaker saying they would escort anyone from the premise who was throwing snowballs.  That is my husband : ) He thought about throwing a few more just so he could leave and get warm but decided that might not be a good idea.

I feel resentful today. I am not who I wanted to be and thought I was going to be.  I guess I should just suck it up and accept this is who I am but it is hard.
  I always love to dream cause I never have to use a cane and can run, jump and do whatever...last night I had a cane in my dream.  I was back at Liberty running free but knew I should be using a cane and I would go looking for it.  It makes me so sad that my cane has made it into my dreams.  Before, even though it was just a dream, I felt normal and now with the appearance of the cane I feel as if my world is getting smaller.  My dream world was the last one I had that I was the old me and I can't describe how it feels to lose that.